Zuriyah's Birth Story and My Rebirth Story

On November 24, 2019 I unexpectedly experienced a feeling peace about my daughter’s birth story. I knew that my experience was for my own personal healing however I had anger in my heart because it did not go as planned. Actually, it is not so unexpected because I have been doing a lot of forgiveness work and that feeling of peace came over me when I thought of it.

This was powerful for me because I did not want to share my story publicly until I had found my own peace. What I do find interesting about the experience is that I was able to experience both midwife at home experience and then the hospital. It was very insightful and I know that there is a deeper meaning behind why I experienced this.

I had a pretty easy and healthy pregnant despite the questions of me eating raw vegan throughout my whole pregnancy. I gained weight beautifully and my body did what it needed to do overall. My husband and I wanted a home birth experience and we had an awesome midwife and we prepared for the water birth of our baby at home. To anyone who wants to have a waterbirth at home, I encourage it, especially if you find a great midwife. I have learned so much from mine that has changed my outlook on many things including nutrition. I loved that she worked with different mothers from different walks of life and dietary preferences. She knew exactly what I needed and I followed the best way I could (which I feel like contributed to an easy pregnancy overall).

My daughter’s due date was October 4 2018 and she was born on October 1st 2018. From my own personal beliefs, I believe that our spirit chooses our lives and we forget it once we get into the physical world so that we can discover our true divine nature. We have free will to make choices on how it manifests but we can never avoid our call or our assignment. My daughter birth reminded me that I cannot control everything. I wholeheartedly believe that she made a choice to be born via C-section. Some may disagree but it’s okay because we all have our own beliefs and this is mine.

On September 30th my water broke early in the morning. The day before I went to the chiropractor for the first time (wish I would have started the earlier in my pregnancy). Sometime between my 38th week appointment and the time my water broke my daughter decided she wanted to flip to her bottom. I did not know until after my water broke and I was checked by midwife hours into labor. Somehow, she flipped to her bottom which is believable because she was moving A LOT before water broke. My girl was delivered on the day I was meant to have my 39 week appointment! She came at 39 weeks, 4 days. I did not want a C-section and we pushed for as long as my midwife deemed safe. I was tired and just wanted my baby at that point. She was delivered via cesarean and was so beautiful and healthy.

However, after being tested she had higher bilirubin levels (jaundice) than normal due to blood type incompatibility and she was under blue lights in NICU for 9 days…Yes 9 days….I was not thrilled to say the least. She had no other issues outside of that. I know that they were doing their own protocol but I still wasn’t happy about it. I had to learn how to advocate for myself and my daughter. I am grateful for the nurses who were awesome. They saw my dedication to get my baby home and I was even given a room to stay the last couple of nights after initially being declined a room to stay after being discharged. There were things that were done at the hospital that I was not so thrilled about however it was a learning lesson. Despite the unexpected events, I still breastfeed my baby and she nursed directly from my breast. I made sure I was at NICU every 2-3 hours to nurse her even at night. I stayed at that hospital until she came home. I only went home for showers pretty much. 

Looking back, I am not sure how my body did that considering I had a C-section and swollen legs. I was just in mommy mode and determined to nurture my baby by any means. I wanted her to know that she was not alone and that she was safe. This experience along with my first year as a mother taught me to listen to my intuition and sometimes the professionals don’t know what they are talking about (not saying all but some really don’t). I know that I went through this for my own personal growth and to support other mothers in some way. This journey has supported me in connecting with the New LaToya that was birthed while utilizing my VOICE. My recovery time was longer than anticipated but that gave me a lot of time to connect with myself, reflect on the lessons that I have learned, and to understand my purpose on a deeper level. Womb work has been very helpful for me. 

When you have a C-section your sacral chakra which is your seat of creativity is cut. You don’t really hear about the traumatic EMOTIONAL experiences that women face in relation to this. It is important for us as women and mothers to nurture ourselves and each other.

I have been reflecting on how 2018 has been so far this year along with where I was a year ago and where I am now and I am very thankful.

I feel way more grounded and confident. Each day I am understanding more and more the power that I have to cocreate with the universe. I have been delving deep into my self worth. I do believe that relationships and finances go hand in hand. I have been making strides to really sit down and look where and I stand and where I desire to be financially along with leaving something for my great great great great grand children. In that I am having to come face to face with things that I have put off, things I have procrastinated on, and reflect on my relationships starting with myself.

It takes a lot of courage to truly face the fact that I created everything that has happened in my life..”the good, the bad, and the ugly” as some may say. But with all of that, it has made me who I am and I am grateful.

I am grateful for Innervisions Personal Development Program which has been life changing. I have been able to really take a look at the universal laws and see how I have allowed them to work for me (or not) consciously and unconsciously. Law of Mind Action states that all things begin in the mind. My thoughts are things. What I believe I will achieve. I have also learned that by making a conscious choice, that I can shift what I experience. I could choose to be “right” or I can choose peace. I can focus on what I don’t have or give thanks to what I do have.

I have been doing a financial challenge that I found on Facebook and in it I have to look at my assets and liabilities to determine my net worth. It was so easy to write down my liabilities bc it was what I focused so much on. I am now looking at my assets and I was so quick to dismiss or not acknowledge them. 

In that awareness I realize how internally that shows up in my life. Dismissing my worth has shown up as underestimating what I have to offer, judgment of myself for choices I have made, undercharging for services for my business, hiding, comparing myself to others, procrastination, and not always following my intuition which is strong. 

As of today I am definitely choosing living life to the fullest. I am going for the joy. I am giving myself props. I am being unapologically me. I am speaking my truth. I am walking in faith. I am going to let that Leo Sun Light Shine. I am taking responsibility for my life. I am preapproved by God so no seeking approval from others is necessary.

I am at the point in my life that I have to be around people who are confident and see their value. I have to be around people that are inspired and not intimidated by the power that another exudes. I have to be around people that understand the importance of self care and self preservation, it is ok to put you first. I have to be around people who I can be honest with and we hold each other accountable. I have to be around people who I can truly be myself with. I have to be around people that know the importance of family, community, and marriage. But even if I don’t always encounter this, I am learning to not leave my throne and to vibrate higher. 

Getting to this point has been a long journey. I am always being told of how focused, disciplined, organized, determined, etc. I am. Sometimes I don’t feel that way though. I have my moments of frustration and lack of motivation. We all have a path to walk and my path I am realizing more than ever is for me. This path at times feel lonely but I refuse to let that ego trick me in really sinking into that belief. I do the things that I do when it comes to health for a purpose that is bigger than I can put in words. And there is so much depth to me that I have yet to truly show but it is coming out now. You may see me share it on here. My union with my husband and truly learning how to be in co committed  relationships instead codependent relationships has confirmed it even further. Two whole people coming together while taking 100 percent responsibility for themselves to CREATE. Not only with him but with myself and others in my life.

I graduated with a degree in biology and life has taken me on a world wind to truly accept the way I am to be a facilitator of health.  It looks different than what western medicine is about.  The things that I was interested in conflicted with what I was seeing around me. The things that resonated with me, many people doubt. I am not a doctor nor a nurse however I know that I was put on this earth with gifts that do not require a degree and certification. 

Health is not just about the physical, but the mental, emotional, and spiritual aspects of you. If you are serious about making changes to your health holistically, I can help you get to the root cause so that you can independently stand in your power and live the life you desire. You can message me, email loveinfinitenature@gmail.com, or go www.loveinfinitenature.com for more information. Infinitenature LaToya Davis Holistic Health Consultant

The Way of Grace

Check out this video! I talk about my experiences as an INFJ and the book The Secret Language of Destiny by Gary Goldschneider and Joost Elfers.

Link to the youtube video about INFJ:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=88atj7wAtKs

Personality Hacker Youtube Channel:

https://www.youtube.com/user/PersonalityHacker

Nothing is the Same...

Man...

I did some "speed reading" through all of my posts. Some of my journal entries were profound, some were pitiful, some was reflective, and some things I don't remember because it was so vague (I am sure I purposely made it that way). Seeing my growth is beautiful, all parts of it, even the most vulnerable moments. I have learned that sharing your story is healing for yourself and others. It is like a breath of fresh air, a relief.

My first journey entry was when I really was going through some kind of awakening. I was definitely at a "crossroads". What I mean is that I was going through a lot of changes and I was shifting to another frequency. I had to learn some lessons the hard way, but I see the beauty of it all. It made me stronger.

The last real entry (November 2013) I was at a new phase of my journey of this life. I had shifted to a different frequency. I was in a new phase. By this time, I found more of a balance and peace in my life. I found love from within which attracted love on the outside. I had learn the power of words, affirmations, thoughts, journaling, healthy eating and lifestyle, meditation, and the list goes on. These things have always been a part of me, but I had started to apply it and saw the results. I still use it to this day. 2013 was the year I truly understood the power of my thoughts and how we ALL have the power to write our stories. We are the creators of life. Some may disagree, but think about it...If you think about how society teaches you that you don't have have the power to create anything you want and you realize you do...it is amazing and scary at the same time!

When I started seeing how what I wrote in my journals started to manifest I was like wow. Then as time progressed I started to see how quickly things were manifesting with just my thoughts. The latter started to occur this year ALOT. I know this year was another shift. I feel the most connected to spirit and nature than ever before. I had a life changing event and became one with my love who I spoke about in a few posts. He came after the "stormy" blog postings. I actually manifested him in my life because I believed I deserved it, I wanted it, and I wrote it down. I trusted in myself and let go.

I cannot express the importance of journalling or writing down your feelings, thoughts, dreams, aspirations, and the list goes on. I look around and see that my life is created by the things I wrote down or thought. I know that many come from a religion and contribute it to who they call their God. I cannot separate myself from something that I am a part of, we are all of part of that greatness. It is the spirit within me that is guiding me, connecting me, protecting me. It is my ancestors (my dear loved ones who have departed the earth physically).

The very home that my husband and I are living in is the home that I wrote about when I still lived 8 hours away. Even when I did move from the south to the northeast to be with my husband (boyfriend at the time) we did not immediately live in the house. We moved in a little over a year later. The home manifested once I forgot about it (aka LET IT GO).I have many stories of things I have manifested. I manifested my last two positions and working on my next manifestation of being able to travel or whatever I desire and have abundance in every since of the world.

One of my older blog post stated that Drake said it best, "You have to own if you want it". This saying still rings true but the only difference is that "Nothing is the same."

Growth! Changes! New Beginnings!

Wow! I have not been on this blog in forever. Many changes have happened since my last post. A lot of growth has happened and I feel like I have so much to give and share! You can find me on tumblr @ infinitenature. I have been starting to post there and I like it! Will be back soon to share more. I promise!

Ask. Believe. Recieve.

I have been MIA but I have been focused on many goals. I am still doing the 40 day Prosperity Plan. I am on my 28th day of my 4th round of the Prosperity plan. Many of my goals have manifested. One thing that I have learned in the past couple of months I have been MIA is the power of the mind. When you are focused and affirming positive thoughts, it will manifest physically. I am thankful for all the great things that are happening. It kind of an out of body experience how things that you only imagined came true. That is the power of your mind and the Universe. The job that I wanted since January I have and everything is falling in place. I am thankful for the universe, my ancestors, angels, spirits, guides, family, and friends. I appreciate the love, support, protection and guidance that I receive. And so it is.

My 40 Day Prosperity Plan Experience

I have finished my first round of the 40 Day Prosperity Plan almost a month ago. I am doing my second round of the 40 Day Prosperity Plan and I am on day 28.

I found out about this challenge in July when I was on my favorite forum and there was a thread on it.

The 40 Day Prosperity Plan was created by John Randolph Price, author of The Abundance Book. I did not read the book (so many books on my list to read), but you don't have to read the book to do the Prosperity Plan. The Plan consists of 10 statements and You recite one statement each day for 40 days. You can recite the statement when you wake up or when you go to sleep. You are suppose to meditate on the statement and journal your thoughts. If you miss a day, you are to restart to day one until you go 40 days straight of reciting each statement. You begin the plan by writing a statement of commitment which is provided.

I don't think you necessarily have to do the plan exactly as it is set up. The main purpose is to form a habit which in essence will create a commitment and cause change. To me this plan help me see that all that I need is already here. I am less anxious about how things are going to be and my finances. I know that I will be alright. I have made it this far.

I changed the plan slightly for my needs. Some of the wording in the plan as far as the statements are religious in terms and I don't practice any religion (although I do believe in spirit). I just simply changed the wording that resonated more with me. I record each statement and for whatever day I am on, I play that statement over and over again while I journal my thoughts, goals, or whatever I wanted to write. I then meditate after I finish writing in my journal. I incorporated my morning ritual with the 40 day plan to fit my comfort level. I did have to start over during the first round but after I made it over the 20 day hump it became a habit.

As I previously stated before, this plan has allowed me to look at things from a more positive light and reminded me that we have all that we need. I am still a work in progress but I don't worry my nerves about things that I use to.

Many people have experienced prosperity come into their lives very quickly whether it be a new job opportunity, money some how coming out the blue, or a new car. Sometimes this happens in the matter of days other times it is months down the line. But the most common thing I have seen is that something happened to that person internally and external manifestations happened.

Its like focusing your mind on positivity and abundance and it reflects in your external world.

For me I felt a change internally although I didn't see anything externally. But I had made bonus the month after I started the prosperity plan and I am on the path of making it for this month also. Its a gradual thing for sure and I am enjoying every moment of it. There are other little things that have happened and I know it has alot to do with having positive thoughts. It is not a coincidence.

Financial Freedom: My Thoughts after readng Cashflow Quadrant

I finished reading Robert T Kiyosaki's book CashFlow Quadrant last week. I can't believe I just now found this book. It is definitely another eye opener. I now look at things way more different. I feel more confident in going after what I want and desire. It is amazing what we are taught growing up and then what we learn as we are adults. My favorite part of the book is Part II of the book which is called Bringing Out The Best In You.

He talks about how if you want to be financially free, don't work for money. As a kid I was taught to go to school, get good grades, and go to college to get a nice good paying job. I did go to college but I don't feel like a regular 9-5 is fulfilling to me. Kiyosaki talks about how him and his wife were homeless before they became financially secure. They took a leap of faith and let go of the old conditioning that many are taught when we are growing up. Although I am sure there were times they wanted to go back to the security of having paycheck but there was a bigger picture that they saw.

Right now I am battling with that same scenario. I see the end in mind (being financially free) but I admit that there is a fear of the unknown that creeps in the back of my mind. It is a very mental thing. Also in this section of the book, Kiyosaki mentions you have to be in order to do which causes you to have. He learned this from a goal setting class. The have part is the goal. What he wrote in the book is not new information. It is mentioned in Write it Down, Make it Happen, Think and Grow Rich, and You Can Heal Your Life.

We can create anything we want as long as we believe it. I do believe we create our journeys by what we think.

Letting of Resistance

I just finished reading Write It Down, Make It Happen By Henriette Anne Klauser for the second time. I really love this book. My favorite chapter is called Resistance. I am sure there are many people like me who have dreams and aspirations that are obtainable but we ourselves are holding it back from happening. Most of time it is just deep rooted fear based off what others think or not wanting to fail.

I just began reading Robert Kiyosaki's Cashflow Quadrant and he mentioned these three things which I think is important to reach your dreams:

-Learn how to handle rejection
-Learn how to not be affected by what other people think of you.
-Learn how to lead people.

I believe the biggest thing for me right now is rejection and not worrying about what others think of me. I am learning that the risk takers always do what most say do not work. The amazing thing is that many times the "crazy" idea works. But even it does not work, there is a lesson learned.

Klauser mentions in her book that There is not failure, only a delay in results. I believe that is so true. You can't give up because of a few bumps in the road. Keep on moving.

Write it Down, Make it Happen!

That statement is very true and I love the book by Henriette Anne Klauser. I am reading it for the second time and I am almost finished. I caught my beau reading it a couple of days ago and I can tell he is intrigued by it too. I was inspired to read this book again because I am at that phase where I know there are goals that I want to achieve and I am ready to stick by those goals. It is time to grow up! I know that I want to be my own boss and not working a regular 9-5. I expressed my goals with my beau and asked what he did he think. He told me to think with the end goal in mind which of course we have all heard before (7 Habits of Highly Effective People). But what was interesting about when he said it was that I just read it in chapter 2 of Write it down, Make it Happen. I thought to myself, "Yes the Universe wanted me to read this book again!"

I journal everyday and my writing in my journal has changed drastically since reading Louise Hay's You can Heal Your Life and Write it Down, Make it happen. I am more cautious of how I write and I am also more precise. I write as if I already have what I desire. I am monitor my thoughts way more. It is also okay to address your "fears" so that it does not sit within you. Klauser stated, "Writing is a good way to force negative emotional reaction into words and not stomach churning". When you actually acknowledge what is keeping you from doing whatever it is you desire, you can work on overcoming it.

Notes from this book so far:

Life is a decision.

Any point in your life, you can decide to act one way in spite of feelings urging you to go in the other direction

When you believe in a dream,you need to risk.

Focus on desired outcome

Have faith that you will reach your goals; to bolster faith when it flags, write it down as a reality.

Hold it in your mind (your goal).


On another note, Happy Birthday to me! I am thankful to see another year. This past year has been a great one. I look forward to more growth and learning experiences.

You Can Heal Your Life

Last weekend ended on a pensive note. My Beau and I had a very insightful conversation with an elder and it was a very humble experience. I felt it brought me and my babe closer together. I appreciate that conversation and it led me to pick up a book that I have had for two years but never could finish. The book is by Louise Hay and it is called "You can heal Your Life". I would always start it but for some reason never finished it. I felt that the universe said it was time! I finished this book yesterday and I felt accomplished. I definitely look at life way more different now than I did a week ago.

What caused me to pick up this book was when I was talking with the elder and she realized I said the word Should and asked why I said it. It brought me back to what Louise Hay says about the power of your words and to be careful of the word choices you choose. She mentions how Should is one of the most damaging words in our language. Hay says that is like saying you are wrong. We have the right to choose so instead of should, use the word could.

I took so many notes while reading because when I write things down, I tend to remember it better. One of the biggest things I learned from this book is that we are responsible for how our lives turn out. We are responsible for our experiences. Am I going to dwell on what happened or could have happen? Or Am I going to take my experiences as a lesson and focus on the moment? Louise mentions in the book that the Point of Power is in the moment. It is very true.

I am learning to embrace what it is not moment and not dwell on the past. Our current situations are the result of of past thoughts. It can be a hard pill to swallow but it is very true. I have been monitoring my thoughts more carefully. It is not an overnight change as far as cleaning out old thoughts that serve a purpose but I am definitely working on it.

I am thankful that I picked up and read from beginning to end "You can Heal Your Life. I know it was the Universe way of saying, "It is time for you to make the beginning steps of what you desire because you said you wanted it"!

Its time to Create Money!

I read "Rich Dad, Poor Dad" by Robert Kiyosaki this week. I can't believe I haven't read that book sooner. As a kid I remember seeing this on the book shelf in my parents office but never read it. I was curious about the name but not curious enough to open up the cover. Looking back I wish I did but I am glad that I read it now. It definitely is encouraging me to do what I truly want to do. I do not want to be in a rat race and I want to be financially free and educated. My parents taught me how to be a hard worker, but financially I have learned more on my own. I was never the type to splurge money and was taught that hard work will get you what you want. But I am learning now, that thinking smart and becoming more educated about how money works can work in your advantage even more. Its all mental. I am now currently asking myself a lot of questions. There are a lot of how and why questions. I may not know quite how I will get there, but the desire is there. I already ordered "Rich Dads Cash Flow Quadrant" by Robert Kiyosaki. I know he has many more recent books that are more related for today's economy and will look at that eventually. This first book was a definite eye opener. I am ready for a change. I just have to take action, NOW!

The irony in reading "Rich Dad, Poor Dad" is that I am on a 40 day prosperity plan. I am now on Day 17 and I am proud. I am more content and understand that abundance comes from within. Your world is the result of what you say, do, and believe in. Both the book and this challenge have one thing in common. They both are mental. Its all about whats in your mind. If you train your mind, then your world can be what you want it to be.

It has been a while

I have been neglecting my blog alot! I keep saying that I will be more active and then life takes over. I recently started the 40 Day Prosperity Plan and I have been having good results as far as my mindset. It is a great way of rewiring your mind to see that abundance comes from within and from the source. With this plan and Uranus trining my natal mercury (a very long transit!), my creative juices are flowing. For those who are not familiar with astrology, here is a definition:

Uranus Trine Mercury from futureminders.com
http://www.thefutureminders.com/Uranus-transits/uranus-trine-mercury.cfm

Uranus Trine Mercury
This time is filled with exciting and stimulating mental activity, and you’re more open to new and progressive ideas. You feel bored with conventional thinking and your mind is much more restless and active. You tend to be impatient with other people who don’t talk or think as fast as you and may need a healthy outlet for your increased nervous energy. You may initiate an educational project that exposes you to a completely new subject or challenges your traditional understanding. You’re more social and outgoing, and will prefer being around people who are unusual, eccentric or just very different from you. You have much more contact with other people during this time, and may be involved in group activities or working with organizations that propose new political or humanitarian objectives. You may initiate new friendships or partnerships with people who offer you a different perspective on your projects, and can now make changes in your business plans that allow you more flexibility. You may be attracted to any involvement with technology, science or electronics, and are extremely perceptive and adaptable when dealing with new techniques or theories. You may have frequent opportunities for travel throughout this year and will explore new or exotic places, although your schedule will tend to be very hectic.

I am reading a lot as usual, but my thoughts are open to more unconventional outlooks of life and I am enjoying it. My dreams are becoming more insightful as of late and its making me think more. I feel like there will be a lot of breakthroughs as summer quickly winds down and fall comes.

One of my big goals is to be more consistent with my blog again. I have grown so much in the last four years and would like to share my journey on a consistent basis. I feel my relationship with spirit and myself has grown so much in the last year. I am in a healthy relationship with a wonderful man. I have improved my health and diet. I am always eager to learn new things about what affects us as people...as spirits in this 3D world. I am learning so much about the black community. It is quite humbling because I am learning that I didn't know much. But I am quite content. It is a beautiful feeling.

Going the Extra Mile 1-17-13

Jan 17th 2013

I have been thinking about how I can progress and get a promotion. This has been on my mind for a while now. I turned to an old entry on 9-17-12 which was before I worked. It stated, Going the extra mile is the only thing that gives the person a right to as for a promotion or extra pay. I guess the Universe is saying to do my work the best I can.That past entry was very relevant and I need that. I pray for a peace of mind and heart. I ask my angels, spirits, and guides to continue to watch over me. I am thankful for everything that I have. I ask my angels, spirits,and guides to shield me with protection even in adversity. I am thankful for my Universe. And so it is. I will get a promotion at Red Cross in Philly, this year 2013. And so it is!

Mr Hill

Its 2013. Man time flew! I have been so busy and neglected my blog. I am going to make an effort to post on my blog now because I have more time (no working every single day anymore yay!). I tend to look back on old journal entries in my written journals and reflect. Sometimes I get answers to questions that I am wondering about at the current moment. Sometimes I get a better understanding of why a situation happened the way it did. Sometimes I look back on what I wrote and see what manifested because of the dream of what I wanted. My written word is proof that what I want I can get if I believe. Lastly I see growth when I read past posts. I understand that it is not good to dwell on the past too much, but its great to reflect and carry on growth.

This journal entry that I am going to share is from September 5th 2012. When I turned to the page, I was surprised because I was thinking about how I haven't been listening to Napoleon Hill's recordings. If you haven't heard any of them I highly encourage you to. It has changed my life!

September 5th, 2012

Definite purpose->Plan->Action

We all must have a definite purpose, with a plan (not important that it is sound)in order for action to occur.

All individual success is result of motives.

Ability to plant motives to mind (sales move)

Repetition of thought and emotion (with burning desire)= subconscious pickup idea and habit form-mid automatically pick up on idea.

Make sure you back up the thought with feeling (desire)=Have Faith

Subconscious does not know difference between negative and positive.
-Write purpose,memorize it, say it day in and day out. Does not happen overnight.

Emotionalize your plan and spirit of faith=can be acted on immediate result.

State of mind of faith can allow immediate result.

Faith with action, deeds, and emotion (positive belief).

Just accept and use what is given to you. Mind is no different.

Power of though is only thing that human has complete control

Universal intelligence=Using mind to permeate into action.

Subconscious section of mind appears to be doorway of infinite intelligence.
-Capable of influence by human faith base definiteness of purpose.

Confidence to use the mind and using the mind to crate what you want to question.
-Once you have done that you will never question yourself.

Must make a sale to yourself before you make a sale with others.

Train mind to pickup positive. Keep your mind on what you want. That will cause your mind to pick up only positive vibration. (Repetition, thought, action)

Prerequisite of Benefits Definiteness of Purpose.
1. Self Reliance
2. Personal Initiative
3. Imagination
4. Enthusiasm
5. Self Discipline
6. Concentration of Effort

Discard of plan that does not work
Have an open mind-Ask of Guidance-Believe that you will get it

Condition your life to where your mind is a prayer.

Embrace or make opportunities.

Inspires confidence and Integrity and Character-Definite of Purpose

Open the gateway of faith
-Making mind positive. Freeing mind of doubt, fear, procrastination, discouragement,
and indecision.

Move with courage, faith, and determination.

Success conscious, health conscious. I can do it!!!!

You can get it even if you don't know where to make the first start.
Greatness is the ability to recognize the power of your mind and to embrace it and use it.

Write your purpose down and read it everyday.

Subconscious mind you are the boss
You have to know what you want.
-Write out the definite plan/plans, maximum time, and what you will give. Make sure your plan is flexible to change. You may get something better.

Listen to hunches!

Make your purpose at a reasonable amount of time.Make your personal purpose private (People will slow you down!).

Conscious mind is jealous mind. It figures out what won't work. Useless trash.

Subconscious mind should be ordered to some work before bed.

Rep. Purpose in life and fruits you are meant to leave behind.

Greatest sin of mankind-neglect of using greatest asset.

Perfect harmony between you and mate

Budget money and time

Cannot criticize or talk about a person virtue.

When some say I am wasting my time: You keep abundance of faith and keeping faith as if it already happened.

If you think you will fail, you will.

Nature will move with definite of purpose.

What are we searching for???

I look back at some of my past entries from here and my written journals and realize how pitiful I sound!!! Thank goodness I have been healing from that.

Don't you love having those epiphanies when you realize why things did not work out the way they are suppose to????

Within in the last month or so I have had that epiphany. Its kind of funny how destiny works. I am a firm believer that you may not get what you want when you want it, but when it comes it is right on time. Not only is timing right, but it happens so swiftly. I don't want to go into detail about things just yet but I am just so thankful for everything that is happening.

It is important that you live life to the fullest with purpose. I feel that at times we as people forget the true importance of why we are here. Everything that we want and need is already here, but it seems like we are always searching for the unobtainable.

Stop Searching....

Just Be.

Signing Off!!!!

Full Circle

Mood: Pensive
Song: Ye Yo by Erykah Badu

It has been over an year since I wrote a entry on blogger. Although that is the case, I have 3 journals that I have written my thoughts in. I look back on my entries and see how much I have GROWN! I have GROWN and moved on from many things I wrote about last year. I can honestly say that I am in a better place emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually. I give thanks to the Universe for that.

All of my blog entries beginning in 2011 were made from another blogger account that I created. I decided to merge the two accounts together. I was encouraged by my big sister to start back up my blog. My hope is to encourage anyone out there who are growing through changes to find their purpose in life. When I write down my thoughts, it gives me relief and answers to questions that would normally drive me crazy by thinking to me. Writing is therapeutic to say the least.

So much has happen and through time I will share.

I can say that I am thankful for everything that has happened. I am thankful for the relationship that I wanted but did not happen. I am thankful for the jobs that I did not get. I am thankful for every no that I get. You know why??? Because it brings me CLOSER to what I am destined for.

There is so much that I will share with you all. I am kind of rusty with this so please bare with me as I get this blog back up and running.

Take Care!

Its a great day

I am starting to have a new outlook on life and things are much better than it was a few days ago. I was reading a thread in my favorite forum and someone brought up the scripture Matthew 13:12. I am not a religious person but that verse resonated with me.

It states:

"For whoever has, to him more shall be given, and he will have abundance, but whomever does not have, even what he has shall be taken away from him."

If you always focus on what you don't have and not appreciate what you already have, you will always attract what you don't want. But if give thanks and focus on what you do have, then you will always attract more great things in life.

I noticed that I have been focused on the negative parts of things and I decided to stop that a few days ago because it was not healthy AT ALL...

I give thanks that I went through a rainy day, because then it made me realize that there are brigher days. I am in control of my life and if I want things to happen it can. I have to believe in myself and I do.

I have to believe in me even when others doubt.

I give thanks for being able to wake up today and to be able to write this blog. I am thankful for my wonderful family and friends who support me and love me regardless of my faults. I am full of love and happiness and I am open to give back in return. My heart and mind is completely open to positive thoughts and I will not let anything tear me down.

I am thankful that I met S because through him I have been able to see things that I once did not see about myself. Love for me starts from within and no one else. I care about S deeply and I know he cares about me. We sat down and expressed ourselves and have come to a peace in a peaceful and perfect way. We will share our love between eachother and be in peaceful harmony. We are in a loving great relationship.

I am thankful for the opportunity to complete my degree this summer. I am excited that I have finally finished this thesis! My mother and I am so overjoyed and accomplished about this acheievement.

I am grateful for my new apartment in Atlanta, Georgia. It is spacious and just for me. It is September and I am enjoying my life in the city with my wonderful career in a laboratory. I love the people I work with and I appreciate everything that has come into my life. I give thanks to everyone. My heart is so full of joy and happiness. Thank you!!!!

You gotta write it down and make it happen.

I am Thankful

I am on my favorite forum and have been reading great threads on LOA. I use to be into it pretty deep but fell off. I have been reaching a point where I want to bring positive energy back in my life and reach a level of becoming content.

One of the main things that keep people from obtaining what they want is doubt. I am grateful for what I have and desire, it is all mine and I give thanks.

Lately I have a desire to be married. I am ready for companionship and longterm commitment for life. I open my heart and mind to love. I feel the happiness that I have from the inner peace and contentment. My inner peace and contentment flows to my husband, my love, my companion.

One of my huge goals is to have a career in a biology laboratory, preferably by September or early fall.

I am grateful for all that I have and my desires. I am happy for my flourished career that has been peacefully obtained with gracious spirits. Im in alignment with my desires and and inner being.

I am thankful for my financial growth and will continue to be grateful for decreasing any financial debt in my life which has been recieved by divine right in a graceful manner.

I am excited about the research that I have cmpleted on my thesis. I am grateful for the experience that it is bringing to me. I will copmleted my thesis and degree this summer 2011.

I am grateful to be at the last semester of graduate school. I will be open and appreciate each moment of the process. My thesis is wonderful and a success.

My Goals That I will achieve

I will finish my graduate studies at THE Alabama State University in August 2011 and walk across the stage December 2011.

I will have a closer relationship with God.

I will Fall in love and have someone who will love me for who I am. The next person I decide to become serious with will be my husband.

I will have a CAREER and live in Atlanta Georgia by September 2011.

I will have a closer relationshp with my family and friends.

I will travel frequently after August for fun.

I will go on a cruise before the year is over with.

I will be at peace and content with life this year.

My finances will be in order. I will pay off all my debt which includes student loans, credit cards, medical bills, car note, and insurance.

I will have over 5,000 in my bank account by in the end of the year. I will have at least 2,000 dollars in savings.

My savings will continue to grow.

I will take care of my body, hair, and soul.

I will have children with my HUSBAND.

I will work with the federal government in Atlanta by September 2011. My CAREER will flourish.

I will obtain another degree in clinical psychology.

I will let go of any toxic relationship.

Habakkuk 2:2-3

2 And the lord answered me, and said, write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeath

3 For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie; though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.

There are more goals I will write down, but this is my focus for right now.