Aware

This past month has been one of the most peaceful months this year. Maybe because I have been changing my perception of things. Mentally this past summer was a challenging one. I was having dreams that stood out to me compared to dreams of the past. If you read my old blogs you know what I am talking about. Those dreams pretty much symbolize me getting back to a place of innocence, new beginnings, tapping into the innerself to understand the physical world around me, and to become more aware.

At the time of those dreams, I was very confused. I now understand why. It is because my innerself is not a reflection on what is going on in my outerworld. There are things that I feel inside that have not yet manifested in the outerworld.

Now that I am more aware, I pay even more attention to the little things. I admit I did not quite understand when I read that I needed to get back to a place of innocence. But you know how when you are a kid, you see things for what they are...you don't judge or put things in boxes. But as you get older and are taught by your parents what you should and should not do, you began to lose your innocence but your EGO gets bigger.

To me the place of innocence is way closer to God than your ego. Because to me God loves all his children, he see things for what they are and do not judge. Children and animals are wonderful creatures...you know why? Because although children are born with EGOs, they are so innocent...You notice how they are oh so brutally honest and inquisitive. Animals imo don't even have egos and if they do, they don't use them. Animals and children are very intuitive, they can sense what alot of adults don't even try to sense.

So my unconscious was trying to get me back to that place of innocence. To awaken and become more intune with my innerself so that I can have a better understanding of the outerworld and the ones around me.

Guess who was with me on that journey in my dreams...Him.

The number 11 has alot of relevance to me this year. In numerology my birthday this year 8/19/2009 breaks down to the number 11. The number 11 is a master number of relevation, ilumination, and awareness. The spiritual messenger. On the search for the truth, the mysteries of life. Idealistic and dreamy.

When you break down 11 you get the number 2 which means harmony, partnerships, and peace.

It all makes sense.

If his Bday is correct, his birthday this year (x/xx/2009) breaks down to 11 also. Which then breaks down to 2. On our first one on one meeting...after the first time we met...was on the 11th of day of the month. Interesting.