Why do People…

So I was woken up about 10 minutes ago because my next door neighbor was arguing with her boyfriend once again. It is not even 10 in the morning yet. I live on campus in "apartment style" dorm. This is the only dorm on campus where visitation is not restrictive. But I swear, if police gets involved, they are going to make the rules more restrictive. These people have explosive arguments….The girl crying and shit, dude yelling. I was woken up by this shit this morning. I don't understand why people stay with each other when they know that the relationship is toxic. Some people just cannot be alone. They are always accusing each other of messing with this person and that person. They obviously can't trust each other.

And why do people let arguments get that explosive. Now my ex and I have had our moments but he always left. This couple just continues to scream and holler at each other. Some may not know this but I can be empathetic to people, and I have learned that I have to change the channel on TV, stop listening to certain things, and not read certain things. I take a person's situation and feel what they are feeling. If you do that too much, you will end up being miserable because you are taking on their energy. Right now I am mad because I was sleep. See they keep slamming doors right now! I put on some Lloyd to calm me down.

I just hope that the neighbor eventually find the strength to leave this dude. They do not need to be with each other. I am glad that I am at a place where I am comfortable being by myself. Now don't get me wrong, I have my moments when I want a hug or just cuddle with someone special but I know that I have to be patient…it hard sometimes. There was once upon a time when I could not imagine being without my ex. But guess what, I am. I guess this is God's way of saying, would you rather be alone at a peaceful place or with someone and miserable?

I was at the park yesterday. It was a beautiful day, clear blue skies. I sat there for about an hour just taking everything in. I know it is not February but I still want a Valentine. I was just looking at the sky and thinking about what my next man was going to be like. One thing I will say is that whoever he is, he is going to be so lucky!