The fall season is here and it snuck up on us. Its already October. Summer is a thing of the past and now it is time to reflect on life. Most people think that fall is the time to be on the grind (which you should always be reaching for your goals) but its really a time for reflection...think of the season where the farmers harvest their crops.
The last few months has been a very introspective and reflective time for me. I find myself being more of a hermit than usual...lol. For a person like me, I am already a introvert so its almost feeling alienated. My hair is not liking it one bit!
The weather has definitely changed drastically. It went from hot to cool really quick...haven't you all notice. People are feeling tired and getting sick. Its because they are not taking the time to relax and reflect.
My journey through my awakening has only just begun. Everyday I actually learn something new. Things that I use to be interested in don't appeal to me as much as it use to. School is starting to become a bore (Gasp). If I had never had to worry about money, you know what I would do? I would travel all around the world and learn something new everyday. Get a feel of different cultures. Particularly with a lover who has the same desire also. I would engage in metaphysics and spiritality on a more advanced level. I would also tap into my creative side with music and arts or just embrace the art of it all (through going to shows, museums, and art galleries). That is what my heart wants.
But I am definitely where a person best stated as "the in-between stage" right now. I know I can't go back to my old beliefs and ways but I am still trying to figure out where I really want to go. Words cannot even describe the things that I am experiencing. And I laugh at those who wish they can find a "soulmate". Its not something that you go looking for, it finds you. And the relationship with that person is unconventional, meaning its definitely not like the movies. Its a very challenging situation and the relationship can be hard to explain to someone if there is even a relationship.
Alot of people who have true soul connections are not physically with the soul mate. I don't even like to use the term soul mate bc the way society has made it into a fairy tale meaning. So I say soul connection. A true connection is established when two souls have a vibratory resonance. Its kind of like when you are flipping through radio stations and you are trying to tune it to the right frequency. The right spot of that frequency where you can hear the music is similar to when two souls are connected. Its a sense of oneness...their conciousness are merging together. The connection is strong to the point where you can sense eachother's thoughts and feelings. The vibration of the souls connecting is intensified and enriched beyond what it was to begin with.
You are pretty much one in the same but you both bring out a part of eachother that was forgotten. You two are alike bc you are one in the soul....like attract like....but there is polarity which draws you two together like a magnet. Meeting eachother is predestined and its not like any other relationship you had before (keep in mind the relationship does not have to be romantic but in many cases it turns into one). Steven Gunn said it best...The love was there before you two met rather than love growing with time (I am paraphrasing). Its unconditional love, its loving every part of that person just because. Its loving without need, want, desire. One of my favorite old school tracks says it best..."Sometimes I just can't help thinking living without you baby, see sometimes, I just can't live crying about you baby.Im not worry about a doggone thing, I'll take anything you bring. Although I love the sunshine, I'll still accept the rain." ("I call your name" by Switch).
Someone said it best...when you go through this experience, you view music lyrics and poetry differently and you realize what you thought was a deep feeling was actually superficial. You learn more about yourself as a person and you evaluate alot of what you have been taught. You learn to trust...You learn to trust yourself :). You learn that the physical part of you is just that, the physical. We are all connected to eachother, we are all energy that make up the universe. Steven Gunn explained this very well. The soul connection brings you back to the feeling of oneness...the physical body gives you the illusion that we are our own seperate thoughts and feelings...so we only are only concerned with our personal desires. But the awakening makes you realize that we are part of a whole and it expands our love and understanding for not only ourself, but for everything (people, animals, nature=universe).
The journey is an interesting one and it has just begun. Steven Gunn also talks about the runners. The ones that try to block that intensity that they clearly feel, but they fear it for whatever reasons suit their upbringing. It must be tough to be a runner. I just hope that all the runners learn to trust themselves. Edited to add: Being apart is actually a good thing bc it gives us both time to make sense of it all :). You can't run from destiny forever, it will catch up with you. Steven Gunn said it best:
I always say to people that i think God has a pretty cool way to wake us up to that and its through soul connections. The "soul shock" as i called it is just that. An electric bolt to wake us up from the prison of our mental consciousness and put us back in touch with the divine from where we came and where we return. BUT we also aren’t isolated from it here and now, we are just hampered by having a physical presence and physical consciousness called thought reality....
So the reason for soul connections is a continuation. Death is no end. So when we reincarnate if the script hasn’t concluded in the past life it continues in this one. The recognition, the feelings of knowing and the immense feeling of destiny at work, all are the big clues to that continuation.
Even when the runner runs, do we really feel that’s the end ? No. That’s where all the 'insanity' comes in. The runner may even deny everything but that voice inside shouts "this isn’t over". Is it all about the relationship and happiness on this physical plane, no. That’s part of it but this bigger picture is about our path, our spiritual progress, learning development, self awareness, self love - the whole thing.
Its only though this soul shock that we really experience the power of destiny, the fact that some things are just completely undeniable despite what i, them or this or that person thinks. If you doubt it just feel the pull, the pain, the immensity of the sensations to see just a small example of the powers of destiny.
Happiness comes from within a sense of purpose, a sense of being connected...oneness. And that oneness comes from a journey through want and need and pain to acceptance and unconditional love.
-Steven Gunn
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