Pensive

I need to definitely fall back.

My ass is trippin big time.

I wish I can explain what I am feeling right now, but I am confused my damn self.

That is exactly what I told my long time high school guy friend through a text.

He text me right on time bc I was getting upset.

We did not talk about what I was feeling but you know how someone calls or text you and it distracts you...thats what happened.

You ever heard that saying, The heart has reasons that reason does not understand....well that kind of explains how I am feeling.

So its hard to explain to just anybody. I am sure those that I would choose to tell this too would try to understand.

But I rather express what I am truly feeling to someone who really does understand.

Its too personal for me to even grasp at the moment.

And to think that I was doing okay for a minute.

I knew everyday was not going to be easy but I feel like I am back to square one.

The heart has reasons that reason does not understand...