Mood: Hopeful
Song: The Winner by Drake
We doin it big
Look at what I done
Look at where Im is
Its only just begun
Cause I was stayin home
When they was havin fun
So please dont be surprised when they announce that I won
This song keeps me going :).
Monday, August 31, 2009
Love You Like I Did
Mood: Pensive/Sad
Song: Love You Like I Did
I hate that my blogs are turning into relationship type blogs but I going to blog what is on my mind currently. It took alot for me to post this. I am a very expressive person, but not necessarily out in public. I just got off the phone with my mother. I like to talk to her because she gives a great view on things. I was telling her about how everybody is getting married and having babies. She tells me, “Sista girl, you got plenty of time, plenty of time”. I am still young, but you know I still think about if I am ever going to get that. Once women hit their mid to late 20’s they start thinking about that despite the fact that they are focused on their career or just getting their life together. I personally don’t want to even have kids until I am in my thirties, but I want to be married first…and although my focus right now is to get myself together, it is still in the back of my head.
I ended a serious relationship earlier this year and I am dealing with it pretty well but I do have my off days or little moments when I am down. What I have experienced since my ex has me kind of discouraged sometimes though. Despite the fact that I try to be positive, sometimes I wonder if I will ever find anybody that loved me like he did. We were not perfect. We had our problems. We had our great times. We have learned from each other. But we were also young when we met. We have
grown a lot and I know that I have grown apart from him in many ways.
My family looks at him in a very high regard. But they don’t know everything. I dealt with more than I should have. There were times when I should have just left and avoided a lot of heartache. Times when I should have just let him go when he wanted to. But I didn’t and now I don’t feel like being there, the desire is not there. But I am still human. I still love him, I always will because what we shared was unconditional love.
One thing that I appreciate about him was the fact that despite the problems, he treated me well…which is why my family likes him. I admit he will be a great mate for whoever he is with when he settles down. I know he feels the same way about me…will he ever find someone who loved him the way I did.
Love is a complicated thing. It just seem like, when you meet guys…you meet bits and pieces of what you want. After a while, all the guys you meet equal the one man that you actually want…lol. I just want to meet a guy that just will enjoy my company and not look at me a just another chick to get in bed with. We can just go out (and when I mean out I mean not at the home) and just have fun together. Get to know each other. I guess time will tell.
Song: Love You Like I Did
I hate that my blogs are turning into relationship type blogs but I going to blog what is on my mind currently. It took alot for me to post this. I am a very expressive person, but not necessarily out in public. I just got off the phone with my mother. I like to talk to her because she gives a great view on things. I was telling her about how everybody is getting married and having babies. She tells me, “Sista girl, you got plenty of time, plenty of time”. I am still young, but you know I still think about if I am ever going to get that. Once women hit their mid to late 20’s they start thinking about that despite the fact that they are focused on their career or just getting their life together. I personally don’t want to even have kids until I am in my thirties, but I want to be married first…and although my focus right now is to get myself together, it is still in the back of my head.
I ended a serious relationship earlier this year and I am dealing with it pretty well but I do have my off days or little moments when I am down. What I have experienced since my ex has me kind of discouraged sometimes though. Despite the fact that I try to be positive, sometimes I wonder if I will ever find anybody that loved me like he did. We were not perfect. We had our problems. We had our great times. We have learned from each other. But we were also young when we met. We have
grown a lot and I know that I have grown apart from him in many ways.
My family looks at him in a very high regard. But they don’t know everything. I dealt with more than I should have. There were times when I should have just left and avoided a lot of heartache. Times when I should have just let him go when he wanted to. But I didn’t and now I don’t feel like being there, the desire is not there. But I am still human. I still love him, I always will because what we shared was unconditional love.
One thing that I appreciate about him was the fact that despite the problems, he treated me well…which is why my family likes him. I admit he will be a great mate for whoever he is with when he settles down. I know he feels the same way about me…will he ever find someone who loved him the way I did.
Love is a complicated thing. It just seem like, when you meet guys…you meet bits and pieces of what you want. After a while, all the guys you meet equal the one man that you actually want…lol. I just want to meet a guy that just will enjoy my company and not look at me a just another chick to get in bed with. We can just go out (and when I mean out I mean not at the home) and just have fun together. Get to know each other. I guess time will tell.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Visions
Mood: Good
Song: momentinlife by musiq soulchild ft The Kindred Soul Family and Cee-lo
But the future so bright, its almost blinding my sight...
I am feeling pretty good today. I am trying to surround myself with positive vibrations. I created my own vision book yesterday. In this book I write down all the things that I want in my life, from pleasure to personal growth. I read it as much as I can and visualize it (in a sense own it). This allows me to have positive thoughts and eventually what I want will manifest. I am also going to make a vision board where I put all the things that I want in my life on a poster so I can visualize it even clearer.
Habakkuk 2:2-3
2 And the lord answered me, and said, write the vision and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth.
3 For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie; though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.
Once you understand, you will believe!
Song: momentinlife by musiq soulchild ft The Kindred Soul Family and Cee-lo
But the future so bright, its almost blinding my sight...
I am feeling pretty good today. I am trying to surround myself with positive vibrations. I created my own vision book yesterday. In this book I write down all the things that I want in my life, from pleasure to personal growth. I read it as much as I can and visualize it (in a sense own it). This allows me to have positive thoughts and eventually what I want will manifest. I am also going to make a vision board where I put all the things that I want in my life on a poster so I can visualize it even clearer.
Habakkuk 2:2-3
2 And the lord answered me, and said, write the vision and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth.
3 For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie; though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.
Once you understand, you will believe!
Friday, August 28, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Something
Mood: Still Pensive
Song: Something by Drake
Should have known better…but I kept thinking this could be something, but it’s really nothing at all.
You know who you are…
Edited:
On a ligher note, just saw that new Digital Girl Remix, LOVE IT!
Song: Something by Drake
Should have known better…but I kept thinking this could be something, but it’s really nothing at all.
You know who you are…
Edited:
On a ligher note, just saw that new Digital Girl Remix, LOVE IT!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Movies
Mood:Pensive
Song: Movies by Ashanti
So its Monday morning and I have been thinking alot this past weekend. I had time to really study my birth chart. It is so cool how I can analyze it and see accurate interpretations of myself.
This weekend I took myself to the movies and saw The Time Traveler's Wife. I love fantasy movies. When I mean fantasy, I am not talking about Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings...I am talking about The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and The Five People that you Meet in Heaven (which also happens to be my favorite movies). These type of movies make you think about life and the lessons in it. I notice the the recurring theme is time and how we are all linked together somehow...people come into your lives for a purpose...things happen for a reason.
I knew as I was walking towards the movie theatre that I was going to walk out kind of sad...I am a hopeless romantic and the movie is bittersweet.
The movie is about a man who travels back and forth between the future and the past. Its a love story and from the age of six he travels in and out of his lover's life and they eventually get married (I don't want to tell you the whole story). This movie makes you think about if you would want to know your future before it even happens. I personally don't mind knowing some parts of my future. But more than anything I would rather be in tune with myself enough to recognize my lessons in life and how I can develop as a person. There is nothing better than understanding yourself to the point where everything around you just makes sense.
I think that we all have life paths that were destined for us at birth. In our lifetimes, we are suppose to go through different lessons and we have certain things that we are destined to do in our lifetime. Some of these things have to be done in order for our lives to be fullfilled. I am now slowly realizing that not every person has a huge understanding of human motivation and the ability to read people at a deeper level than what the eye shows...but I do.
What really made this movie special is the undying love that this couple had. It was absolutely beautiful. I know I am such a hopeless romantic but I hope to find a love like that one day...just like in the movies...lol
Song: Movies by Ashanti
So its Monday morning and I have been thinking alot this past weekend. I had time to really study my birth chart. It is so cool how I can analyze it and see accurate interpretations of myself.
This weekend I took myself to the movies and saw The Time Traveler's Wife. I love fantasy movies. When I mean fantasy, I am not talking about Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings...I am talking about The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and The Five People that you Meet in Heaven (which also happens to be my favorite movies). These type of movies make you think about life and the lessons in it. I notice the the recurring theme is time and how we are all linked together somehow...people come into your lives for a purpose...things happen for a reason.
I knew as I was walking towards the movie theatre that I was going to walk out kind of sad...I am a hopeless romantic and the movie is bittersweet.
The movie is about a man who travels back and forth between the future and the past. Its a love story and from the age of six he travels in and out of his lover's life and they eventually get married (I don't want to tell you the whole story). This movie makes you think about if you would want to know your future before it even happens. I personally don't mind knowing some parts of my future. But more than anything I would rather be in tune with myself enough to recognize my lessons in life and how I can develop as a person. There is nothing better than understanding yourself to the point where everything around you just makes sense.
I think that we all have life paths that were destined for us at birth. In our lifetimes, we are suppose to go through different lessons and we have certain things that we are destined to do in our lifetime. Some of these things have to be done in order for our lives to be fullfilled. I am now slowly realizing that not every person has a huge understanding of human motivation and the ability to read people at a deeper level than what the eye shows...but I do.
What really made this movie special is the undying love that this couple had. It was absolutely beautiful. I know I am such a hopeless romantic but I hope to find a love like that one day...just like in the movies...lol
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Waiting
Mood: Thoughtful
Song: Playa Cardz Right by Keyshia Cole and Tupac
So I was on my favorite forum and lurking at a thread which asked the question, Do Men really respect you if you make them wait? There were alot of interesting points made. For the most part I think that if a guy respects you and see you as a person with a good character then it does not matter...BUT then again it depends on they guy. Hell IDK. I know alot of women use the waiting game as a way to gain respect but that is not what I believe in.
I think that there should not be a time limit, it should be done when you feel completely comfortable, communication is open, and you are in tune with that particular person. From experience, I have to be absolutely comfortable with a person because it will not be enjoyable and great experience with that person if I am not. When it comes sex I think some people can detach emotion from physical...but I am a feelings type of person so I have to be comfortable. So for me waiting has nothing to do with dude, its all about me. When the time is right, the experience is enjoyable imo.
Song: Playa Cardz Right by Keyshia Cole and Tupac
So I was on my favorite forum and lurking at a thread which asked the question, Do Men really respect you if you make them wait? There were alot of interesting points made. For the most part I think that if a guy respects you and see you as a person with a good character then it does not matter...BUT then again it depends on they guy. Hell IDK. I know alot of women use the waiting game as a way to gain respect but that is not what I believe in.
I think that there should not be a time limit, it should be done when you feel completely comfortable, communication is open, and you are in tune with that particular person. From experience, I have to be absolutely comfortable with a person because it will not be enjoyable and great experience with that person if I am not. When it comes sex I think some people can detach emotion from physical...but I am a feelings type of person so I have to be comfortable. So for me waiting has nothing to do with dude, its all about me. When the time is right, the experience is enjoyable imo.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Happy Birthday to Me!
Mood:Happy and Hopeful
Song: Givemorelove by Musiq Soulchild
I have been blessed to see another year of life! I have learned alot during this past year, especially within the last several months about myself. I am really growing up...my sister said to me, this is your last year to act a fool, bc after that, its not a good look. I was thinking the same thing even though I don't intend to act trife. Today is the first day of classes and my class is not until this afternoon. So I am just lounging around until that time comes. Hopefully I will be getting the graduate assistantship this semester, I should know by the end of the week hopefully.
This year my intentions are to be happy with myself and most of all love myself. I also will not be so hard on myself and continue to look at the brighter side of things. Lately I have been having the urge for companionship again, idk...well based on numerology this is my year of partnerships. This is the year that relationships end or begin. Not only on the romantic level, but friendships and business level also. I ended a relationship earlier this year but now I don't mind having someone around again. I can't believe I said that, I normally would not admit that...I always value honesty and the first step is to be real with yourself, right?
Song: Givemorelove by Musiq Soulchild
I have been blessed to see another year of life! I have learned alot during this past year, especially within the last several months about myself. I am really growing up...my sister said to me, this is your last year to act a fool, bc after that, its not a good look. I was thinking the same thing even though I don't intend to act trife. Today is the first day of classes and my class is not until this afternoon. So I am just lounging around until that time comes. Hopefully I will be getting the graduate assistantship this semester, I should know by the end of the week hopefully.
This year my intentions are to be happy with myself and most of all love myself. I also will not be so hard on myself and continue to look at the brighter side of things. Lately I have been having the urge for companionship again, idk...well based on numerology this is my year of partnerships. This is the year that relationships end or begin. Not only on the romantic level, but friendships and business level also. I ended a relationship earlier this year but now I don't mind having someone around again. I can't believe I said that, I normally would not admit that...I always value honesty and the first step is to be real with yourself, right?
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
10 Love Commandments
This song is the truth. I like the message. Johnta doing the damn thang on this.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Woman=Problems
Mood: Sleepy
Song: Mo' Money Mo' Problems by Biggie Ft Puff Daddy and Mase
So I was on Facebook sometime last week and I saw that a guy that I went to college with has a blog which is pretty decent may I add. I read a blog entry that had an equation up which some of you may have seen before.
Readers were asked for their thoughts on this equation and if it was true. You know I had to respond...
I saw this equation a few years ago when I was in undergrad still. But I look at this equation even more differently now (maybe because I have learned alot since then) . As a woman, I would never say that men equal problems. Yes problems do arise when dealing with men but to say that they equal problems is not fair. And the same thing should apply to women. I responded saying that if anything the equation should stop at money equal problems. You are in control of who you decide to deal with on a romantic level. Many of us tend to overlook the major flaws/red flags when dealing with mates. So if you got money best believe you need to watch out for snakes. We live in a physical world that is based more on material vs character. If more people would focus on character, there would be less problems.
Song: Mo' Money Mo' Problems by Biggie Ft Puff Daddy and Mase
So I was on Facebook sometime last week and I saw that a guy that I went to college with has a blog which is pretty decent may I add. I read a blog entry that had an equation up which some of you may have seen before.
Readers were asked for their thoughts on this equation and if it was true. You know I had to respond...
I saw this equation a few years ago when I was in undergrad still. But I look at this equation even more differently now (maybe because I have learned alot since then) . As a woman, I would never say that men equal problems. Yes problems do arise when dealing with men but to say that they equal problems is not fair. And the same thing should apply to women. I responded saying that if anything the equation should stop at money equal problems. You are in control of who you decide to deal with on a romantic level. Many of us tend to overlook the major flaws/red flags when dealing with mates. So if you got money best believe you need to watch out for snakes. We live in a physical world that is based more on material vs character. If more people would focus on character, there would be less problems.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Break
Mood: Hopeful/Anticipation
Song: Keep on moving by Soul II Soul
Its been almost two weeks since I blogged! Well since then I completed summer school and maintained my 4.0. I have been home for about a week and have one week until I go back to school. Since I have been home I have really been reading up on astrology and I want to really learn more on it. I was really thinking about shutting this blog down for real. I don't know, some recent events really pissed me off and I just did not feel like writing...but then I thought to myself, what good is that? There is no use in dwelling on what may have happened in the past. Just learn from it and move on. At the end of the day I control my destiny. Brewing negative thoughts and regrets only will hold me back. Plus its the heart of the summer and almost my birthday, I gotta stay positive!
Song: Keep on moving by Soul II Soul
Its been almost two weeks since I blogged! Well since then I completed summer school and maintained my 4.0. I have been home for about a week and have one week until I go back to school. Since I have been home I have really been reading up on astrology and I want to really learn more on it. I was really thinking about shutting this blog down for real. I don't know, some recent events really pissed me off and I just did not feel like writing...but then I thought to myself, what good is that? There is no use in dwelling on what may have happened in the past. Just learn from it and move on. At the end of the day I control my destiny. Brewing negative thoughts and regrets only will hold me back. Plus its the heart of the summer and almost my birthday, I gotta stay positive!
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