I have been reflecting on how 2018 has been so far this year along with where I was a year ago and where I am now and I am very thankful.
I feel way more grounded and confident. Each day I am understanding more and more the power that I have to cocreate with the universe. I have been delving deep into my self worth. I do believe that relationships and finances go hand in hand. I have been making strides to really sit down and look where and I stand and where I desire to be financially along with leaving something for my great great great great grand children. In that I am having to come face to face with things that I have put off, things I have procrastinated on, and reflect on my relationships starting with myself.
It takes a lot of courage to truly face the fact that I created everything that has happened in my life..”the good, the bad, and the ugly” as some may say. But with all of that, it has made me who I am and I am grateful.
I am grateful for Innervisions Personal Development Program which has been life changing. I have been able to really take a look at the universal laws and see how I have allowed them to work for me (or not) consciously and unconsciously. Law of Mind Action states that all things begin in the mind. My thoughts are things. What I believe I will achieve. I have also learned that by making a conscious choice, that I can shift what I experience. I could choose to be “right” or I can choose peace. I can focus on what I don’t have or give thanks to what I do have.
I have been doing a financial challenge that I found on Facebook and in it I have to look at my assets and liabilities to determine my net worth. It was so easy to write down my liabilities bc it was what I focused so much on. I am now looking at my assets and I was so quick to dismiss or not acknowledge them.
In that awareness I realize how internally that shows up in my life. Dismissing my worth has shown up as underestimating what I have to offer, judgment of myself for choices I have made, undercharging for services for my business, hiding, comparing myself to others, procrastination, and not always following my intuition which is strong.
As of today I am definitely choosing living life to the fullest. I am going for the joy. I am giving myself props. I am being unapologically me. I am speaking my truth. I am walking in faith. I am going to let that Leo Sun Light Shine. I am taking responsibility for my life. I am preapproved by God so no seeking approval from others is necessary.
I am at the point in my life that I have to be around people who are confident and see their value. I have to be around people that are inspired and not intimidated by the power that another exudes. I have to be around people that understand the importance of self care and self preservation, it is ok to put you first. I have to be around people who I can be honest with and we hold each other accountable. I have to be around people who I can truly be myself with. I have to be around people that know the importance of family, community, and marriage. But even if I don’t always encounter this, I am learning to not leave my throne and to vibrate higher.
Getting to this point has been a long journey. I am always being told of how focused, disciplined, organized, determined, etc. I am. Sometimes I don’t feel that way though. I have my moments of frustration and lack of motivation. We all have a path to walk and my path I am realizing more than ever is for me. This path at times feel lonely but I refuse to let that ego trick me in really sinking into that belief. I do the things that I do when it comes to health for a purpose that is bigger than I can put in words. And there is so much depth to me that I have yet to truly show but it is coming out now. You may see me share it on here. My union with my husband and truly learning how to be in co committed relationships instead codependent relationships has confirmed it even further. Two whole people coming together while taking 100 percent responsibility for themselves to CREATE. Not only with him but with myself and others in my life.
I graduated with a degree in biology and life has taken me on a world wind to truly accept the way I am to be a facilitator of health. It looks different than what western medicine is about. The things that I was interested in conflicted with what I was seeing around me. The things that resonated with me, many people doubt. I am not a doctor nor a nurse however I know that I was put on this earth with gifts that do not require a degree and certification.
