Being Too honest...

Well yesterday I was put in a situation that I kind of wish I can take back...but it happened for a reason. The situation mirrored exactly a previous situation I was in (its almost creepy). I learned that regardless of what end of the spectrum I am at, the same results can occur so just accept it for what it is. I guess I'll explain it a little bit...I was in a situation where someone just stopped talking to me and I felt like I was open enough to where they should not have felt like they had to avoid me. So now I am in a situation where I was trying to be honest to someone and now they are avoiding me. I am human, I feel a little bad although I was being honest as hell. People are always trying to "save feelings". Although I am very gentle natured, I am also so blunt but I try to say things in a tactful way.

It is what it is...

How important is money to you?

*Sigh*

This is the first time in a while where I am able to have a little me time. I have been occupied with many activities. Before I celebrate one of my soror's birthday, I decided to post a blog about something I was discussing with a bruh on facebook. I was telling him how I went to school for biology but how I wish I would have gotten a double or minor in psychology or sociology. Currently that is way more fitting for me and I think I would be more passionate in that area. He mentioned how the money is of course in Biology but I don't care about that. I am more focused on doing something that my heart is set on. One thing about me (and I am so honest on this) is if I am working somewhere strictly for money purposes I go crazy, I don't care how much money I make. I am an idealist but I have logic in my bones too, of course I know you need money to survive and I know that I will be living very comfortably one day. But one thing I refuse to do is live lavishly and miserable. So many people do not follow their heart and they end up with regrets and bitterness. I refuse to turn into one of those people. I know money is important but for me personally it is not.

It seem like the world is driven by money. Men and women are driven by money...which is why it is a little harder to find someone who is true. The only reason why I am driven by money to an extent is because I have to in order to survive. Money is an illusion just like time.

Sigh of relief

I proud to say that I am part of the best sorority ever. I love my G-S-S.

Anyway school has just started back (well last week) and its going to be a busy semester. I am happy and anxious at the same time. Nothing to talk about at the moment.

Do You love yourself?

That is a good question that many people may hesistate to answer. I personally think people have a hard to answering it because they don't know how to really define it. I use to describe love as an action but now I know what it truly is. I woke up this morning self reflective and I feel a inner peace inside. To me that is love, when you have oneness with yourself, a peace from within. We are all human with insecurities but I accept mine. There may be things going on in my life that I would like to change, but I know that I will be ok. Somehow, some way...things always work out, especially if you have faith. I know that a change has happen when people who I have gotten to know say the same thing. They say that I am wise...I do think I am beyond my years...but I still feel like there is so much more to grow from.

I can say that I am comfortable now as far as putting myself out there to be back in the dating world. I have my standards and can honestly say what I want and need. I have to be with someone who love and trust themself first and foremost. Society put so much emphasis on how value comes from outside of ourselves...that we need to find love from something materialistic or someone else whether it be a baby or a romantic interest. The truth is all that we need comes from ourselves. If someone feel like in order to feel valuable you have to look outside of yourself, then how can you actually trust yourself, let alone others. I know I have no time for games, I am almost 25 which is still young, but grown enough to know better. I don't have time for little "tests" to see where a person mind is truly at. Its time to just be observant and trust your intuition and feelings. The truth always come to the light through time if you let it. I want to share love with someone because I have so much love to give. I should use that love to help those who need a helping hand also. Letting go and opening up, can be a scary thing but what is there to really FEAR? Nothing...The fear is coming from you, nothing else. The PAIN is coming from you. The LOVE is coming from you.

I love this song by omarion, I been playing this song in heavy rotation bc I feel it.